inz & ootz

In

Shorts weather- We had it for a minute. Now it feels like we're stuck in early March. I pulled out the summer clothes, now, let's go!

Saving money- I went a little overboard last month. It's time to buckle down and focus on work, not spending! I will have to splurge a little for some upcoming birthday presents.

Reuniting- I love this time of year. Everyone comes home from school, makes plans to hang out, and then breaks them with sympathetic apologies. Not me! Not this time. I need my friends more than ever now and it is extremely important to me to stay close with them.

Sleep- As much as I would live by "rest is for the dead," I feel so much better after a good nights rest. I can focus more, stay upbeat, and do my best. I feel like I'm thirty.

Out

Noobs- I'm sooo fed up with new people at my work. I feel like I have to do everything and am constantly having to run around helping customers, showing the noobs how to do things or where things are, and even helping THEIR customers! So irritating.

Classes- Over it. So over it. I hate how all teachers have the same mind set of theirs being a students only class.

Commuting- SO OVER IT. I can't stand driving 45 minutes twice a day almost every day. And 25% of the people on the highway act like they've never had to merge before. Incase one of those people are reading this, MERGE does not mean slam on your breaks and wait until there are absolutely no cars in a mile radius to then enter the highway. Thanks.

regret.

Sometimes I really wish I had listened to my parents when they said "you should look into the advertising program." I knew that it would be something I could love... if I was succesful... if I found a job. Or journalism. Journalism has always been one of my greatest passions. I love writing! I love writing on topics that interest me, on things others could relate to, on things I need to get off my chest. I can't even imagine getting an internship in a fast paced, fashion and living driven environment. My dream job would be working for a magazine like Cosmopolitan or Seventeen and being able to have fun at work while doing something I love.

But it's too late now. I'm well into my major and doing a good job with it. I guess, being an English major, I could go into publishing. Maybe later in life I could take some Mass Communication classes and look into Journalism. It's such a tough field though. You have to be the best of the best, and I'm the best at nothing.

4/11

I don't know why I've lately become obsessed with reorganizing my room. It could be because I'm getting an apartment this summer and am already ready for a place of my own. Looking through pictures and all my old things and spending time with my family kind of makes me not want to leave though. Plus the money. But I don't want to think about it. I want to think about coming home to my own place and going out without having to worry about worrying or waking my parents. It's not that they're controlling, I just feel inconsiderate. Oh no... my dad just told me how much I was getting back from taxes. That was a bad idea. Now I'm already thinking about what I could do spend it on! I love lazy nights like this. I am currently listening to Brand New with a moisturizing sugar scrub on my lips. Makes me happy to have alone time sometimes. But only sometimes. And it's usually just to do things like take long showers or clean my room or do laundry or write a paper. But I guess those are normal things to want to do alone. I really want a puppy. I want something that is all mine, that thinks I'm it's momma, and that I can raise to be cuddly and adorable. Drinking things out of wine glasses makes me feel so sophisticated. So does having my nails painted. I guess I'm weird. But hey, life would be so much more boring if I weren't. Goodnight.

Xoxo, Kathy